*+ wat m i exactly to u??.. +*

from my title.. ya.. i was tinking wat m i to that "sumone".. it's not that i dun wan to trust u.. but.. tinking back.. wat did u do to make mi trust u exactly??.. N ya.. i noe.. i should trust u.. cos i jus should.. but.. by gifing mi the insecure feeling is making mi hard to trust u.. i'm not a chio bu but neither m i a ger who can't b seen.. N pls.. it's NEBER EVER becos that u r shuai that i agree to b wif u okie..

i'm not a ger who will "si chan lan da" when the feeling in between has fade.. N i will let go when it is time.. it's jus becos of the feeling that i agree to b wif u.. which is obviously needed for 2 person to get together.. Whenever i said sumtink.. u will tink that i dun trust u.. but did u ever did something that make mi secured.. n trust u.. u didn't okie.. u said that i scare u that day when i sms "byebye" to u.. N u said that i dun trust u but did u ever tink that wat makes mi feel so.. n y did i feel so insecure.. if if.. u were to gif more attention to mi or at least.. make mi feel that u r there.. would i feel so??.. i wouldn't.. i'm not a kid neither m i a ger who need the full attention.. i dun ask for ur companion all day round.. i jus need the feeling of u r there for mi.. n u r real.. but u jus make it dun seems so..

I'm ur gf in name but i dun feel that i m a gf to u.. it's realli xin ku to have tis feeling okie.. i asked n prompt u before that isit that u wanna brkup.. but u say no.. n that's y i'm hanging on to it.. cos i remembered wat i promise u.. but u jus seems to forget wat u have promise mi.. isit so hard to keep a promise??.. that's y there's the saying of "promise are meant to be broken but not meant to b kept".. I wanna trust u.. but jus do sumtink so as to make mi feel that i can trust u??.. it's not difficult isn't it.. ><..

Arh.. watever.. watever it is.. than let it b.. i can't b bothered... i dun have the strength to say anitink.. n ya.. i dun even noe wat i m typing now.. N i seems contradicting here n there.. =.=!!.. i was like.. jus feeling damn bored now in sch.. plus i didn't have enough slp.. n plus.. tis tink makes mi feel like as if i m deprived of oxygen.. i jus feel so suffocating.. n that's y i came to blog.. though i dunno wat i m typing exactly.. but i jus feel that i needed somewhere to let off everytink.. n so the oni place is here..

My eyes are closing soon.. Jus gonna end here.. I realli hope that u will b able to c wat i wrote.. but i tink it's kinda difficult for that to happen.. i shall get my ans by today..

















=== wat m i to u??.. ===

Alrite..

Bye~..