Actively finding job recently.. n sincerely realli pray that it will come my way..

Had lots of thought running through my mind recently.. n it seriously sux.. all the while i'm a carefree person.. n wat i dislike most.. is to b bother by things that has already pass.. cos it doesn't help much by thinking about it.. n it seriously not oni doesn't help.. but in addition.. it will make you feel worse than watever mood u r having at that moment.. CONTRADICTION causes everything.. n whatever in life there is.. it's full of contradiction.. n there's no way that we can ever get away from it.. 

To that someone :

I don't know if you still do read my blog or so.. but whatever it is.. it's irritating, suffocating and most importantly the feeling sux to keep thinking of it.. So anyway.. i do admit that i have a little feelings for u n i seriously thought of going further.. but i noe that it's impossible cos.. u still have "her" in ur heart.. n the link between us jus makes it even more difficult to go a step further.. N becos i noe.. that's y i'm not doing anything that is very obvious that i wanted you to be wif mi..

I myself noes my own feeling.. n wat i can say is.. my feeling comes easily.. but at the same time.. it fade easily too.. i'm not saying n implying that my feelings for u fade that easy.. but rather.. the moment that post came out from there, i don't noe wat else i can expect from u.. even as a close friend of urs.. don't u noe that.. some things are better to be kept in the heart rather than saying it all out?.. n yea i do and i can accept my ex/ppl who's interested in mi/ppl who i'm interested in to be friend if we can't reach the line of being a couple.. but it's when not everything is being show out.. It's awkward when everything is being show so clearly.. Prob to u i dun matter anymore.. n thus u can do everything that u have done.. i dun blame n neither m i angry wif u for doing that.. but jus feel that prob u should noe how i'm feeling..

We drifted far apart becos of that somebody before.. n got back close together.. n prob this time round.. the drifting would be further than it was before.. n neber back again..

Watever it is.. all the best for everything in ur life.. n hope that u can walk out of that past of urs soon as i believe u r able to..