Mmh..

Can feeling be controlled?.

Ohh well.. somehow u can but definitely it's not an easy task.. not everyone can do it cause not everyone can control their own mindset.. Most of the time, our feelings is being controlled by our heart and ppl love going by the "flow".. haas..  It's uncommon that one will be able to think rationally by using their mindset to control and know what should be done and what shouldn't be.. But when u do know how to control it rather than be controlled by it, u will definitely not be hurt.. but somehow, human just love torturing themselves.. laugh.. 

Thinking from another perspective, probably being too rational in feelings would not be good because it's all the silly things that u actually do while in the relationship or pursuing one that makes it memorable for urself.. It's all the efforts that make up one memorable relationship.. but whenever that relationship comes to an end, only 3 things would be left which is pain, hurt and memories.. 

Humans are just one contradicting creatures and we just love doing things that is not to our advantages in regards to feelings/love/relationship..  It's all because we love going by the "flow:" rather than following our mindset.. We love the feelings of "flow" and that is why we are not following our mindset.. Our mindset is on the rational side thus things that is coming from there would definitely not be of anything that is nice especially when you r so in love with that fellow and u clearly know that u shouldn't be.. laugh.. 

In most of the situation, the heart wins the battle against the mindset and so that's when the suffering of hurt comes.. So in conclusion, if u r so anti against being hurt and u don't want to encounter that piercing feeling in ur heart, follow ur mindset but not the "flow" that will keep u happy for a period of time.. 

Okies, basically i'm tired now and i'm trying to make sense in this post.. so in any case, if u r so not agreeable with my perception.. pls kindly abide to ur own thinking or so.. haas..

Do i look like the ballerina or whatsoever that spins in a music box to u?!

If not, why are u spinning me round and round but never ever will it end beside u?. 

I'm trying too.. n i know so r u.. i feel uneasy, weird and uncomfortable too.. reason being.. cause we r just not used to it.. 

Trying means an attempt or effort to do something.. I can c that you r trying.. but i don't understand y did ur tries lasted for only 1 day.. To attempt to try that.. we have to do something about it.. don't we?. we didn't even start out on anything and you have already given up.. How do u expect or rather how am i suppose to react to u.. Frankly speaking.. i've already do my best.. I've tried to salvage it by texting you and explaining to u why is everything turning out like this.. and what i'm trying to prove to u is.. u have to try for a period of time and of course by doing things relating to it before you can even know whether that will work out or not.. not by trying 1 day without doing related things and think that it won't work out.. 

Whatever it is.. i know u need time to think about it.. 

I don't know what really trigger u to initiate that.. but definitely it's not purely because of chances that trigger you to initiate it as i'm in this situation like you too.. but i don't even give chance if i have totally no feeling towards that fellow.. i'm not implying that u r definitely having feelings towards me.. but rather getting you to understand that.. it can't be only because of chances that things happen.. prob u can think abt it and find out what is really triggering u.. 

I've totally no comments anymore regarding this.. I just hope that you can really think abt it and do what you should..

Prawning!

Ohh.. i love prawning nowadays.. Mmh.. to be exact.. i love the process when i actually prawn-ed something & when i'm eating them!. haas.. it's seriously fun and i love it!. 

Mmh.. Lots of thing happen recently.. and something really unexpected happen yesterday.. haas.. i was really staring at my phone when i saw that.. =.=.. without mentioning.. i'm shocked lah!. Well.. frankly speaking.. all the while i hope that it happen.. and when it really did happen.. i'm seriously in a lost.. at that moment.. my mind really went blank..  haas.. prob it's because it's completely different from all the others that i had.. and that was what i never expect would happen.. ahahas.. 

Anyway!

A post dedicated to my dearest buddy..

I know that things are hard for you nowadays.. and you are easily stressed up.. but in any way, i'm always here for you and you should have know this since donkey years ago.. Mmh.. i don't really know how to say sweet things nowadays.. and all the while.. we don't use sweet stuff towards each other too.. laugh.. but you should know that deep down in my heart.. you can always count on me and i'll definitely help you in every way if i can and it's within my abilities.. What i hope for you to do now.. is to brace up and stop thinking so much of everything.. Just be good and talk to me if you need any listening ears okie!. if not i'm so gonna poke u! =P.. Ohh.. N you are so gonna go gym-ing with me every tues and thurs!. GET IT !. it's a MUST and not a choice for you.. =P

i love 16th!. laugh..  =P

Love?

去他妈的爱情..
Translation: To Hell With Love

爱情是场游戏，谁先付出真心就是输家。

Translation: Love is a game, the one who shows out their true feelings first would be the loser. 

To be a winner in love, you have to be a top professional cheater/liar, to cheat upon others but they are unaware of it and most importantly, it's to cheat upon yourself and make yourself unaware of it either..

From then on, Love is gonna be like a everyday routine just like we need to eat and slp.. it's a want but definitely not a must to have, a need but definitely not the one and only thing.. 

Blinded by love, happen twice and never will it happen again.. I once changed for the better and now it's not gonna be anymore.. 99% of love is a hallucination, a fake feeling, a fantasy that you can fantasize on, the only 1% that is real, is the pain.. The pain that will cling on to you till time dissolve it and fade off.. It will slowly invade till it devour your heart, it's only by that time, you would then have got over that person.. 

After much consideration, being how i used to be like last time is definitely better than being what i am now.. At least, i won't have that feeling which i had few years back.. 

Changing back to how i used to be towards the perception of love..

Morning ppl!

Somehow, I got it i got it i got it!

Ahahhas.. u may not be able to understand what i'm referring to.. but in anyway.. i just got it.. I can see that you are not that willing to try anything.. and so.. if that's your decision.. i'll respect it.. 

Mmh.. slept real early last night.. as i have been out for 3 consecutive days till late.. and so i was drain out totally.. But then.. it's really nice to slp so early.. haas.. It's like i'm full of energy in the bright morning when i woke up for work.. N i like it!..

So be it so be it so be it~

Maybe it's good , Maybe it's bad?. haas.. i don't know.. 

Ohh anyway..

Seriously, i'm blessed and protected by god.. Just got to know that there's "something" in the toilet of the 1st floor of my company building.. and seriously whenever i'm there, i don't feel anything.. until today.. that i found out from one of my colleague that.. there's actually "something" in the 1st and 3rd floor of the company building toilet.. Wooh.. isn't that a protection from god?. to think that i don't have any issues whenever i'm in the toilet of that 2 storey.. 

Before i dozed off at work.. I think prob i can blog something to keep myself awake.. 

Mmh.. 

Was reading on a chinese novel that i've borrowed from the library.. and this sentence caught my attention and have been going through my mind since then.. 

" Feelings Can Be Nurtured, And What You Need Would Be Time "

Frankly speaking, can feelings really be nurtured?. 

How nice would it be if all feelings can be nurtured irregardless of whether you have any feelings for that person or not.. If that would really happen, everyone would be blissfully in love.. isn't it?. but then again.. love things are always unpredictable.. Who can be sure that the partner that you have been with for yrs would be the one that you would end up with up till the end?. Who can be sure that the one that you have no feelings for wouldn't end up with you in the end?. Who can be sure that you would never develop feelings for that particular person forever?. 

To try or not to try.. that's a question.. but where can i find the answer to it?. Presuming and assuming doesn't help.. and will only further confuse me when i see more things.. I do wanna try to do something but i can't seems to find my courage and there's certain things that i'm afraid of losing and thus not doing anything..  Will you just tell me what i should do?. 

Seriously, it's really been a long time since i had all this mixed feelings.. and i don't know why it's you either.. so don't ask me abt it.. if i know why is that so, i wouldn't be that confused now either..

Will it happen?.

Blessed~

Mmh.. Has been slping for like only a few hours recently and i'm tired!.. not that i wanted it.. but suddenly.. there's so many activities waiting for me recently.. haas.. once in awhile.. my schedule would be suddenly packed.. and i don't realize it either until i feel that i'm deprive of my beauty slp.. Ohh well.. having my beauty slp is definitely veryveryvery important cos it keeps me pretty!.. haas.. okies.. this is just my own theory and i seriously won't abide to it last time.. but nowadays.. i do!.

Anyway..

Had a fun night with some "kukus" that day.. and they seriously make my day.. haas.. As always.. this few "kuku" is hilarious to the max cause they are always doing things that is least expected.. N i finally heard someone singing!.. =P Though i did laugh and that someone is extremely mindful over this.. thus he keep repeating that he's not gonna sing again cos i promised to not laugh(which i didn't remember promising.. *opps*)which i did in the end.. but i swear.. it wasn't because of the voice of urs.. but rather the way u sing the song.. ahahahas.. N i finally had my photo taking with them too!.. but as i'm using the company com now.. i don't have the pic on hand to post.. thus.. pls kindly refer to my fb if you are interested in the photos.. haas..

PS: I'm u guys de bro!.. I AM I AM =P

Was late for work yesterday.. cos i got home quite late as i was hanging out with some "kuku"..  and i took a cab down for work.. and there was jam all the way.. but i prayed!.. and guess miracle do happen when i do pray.. and all of a sudden.. the traffic was smooth.. not to the extent that u can drive at normal speed.. but at least.. not stuck at a certain space.. haas..

After all that happens in between us.. I never thought that.. i would have feelings towards u again.. 

but still.. it happen..

Since it's impossible between us.. Would it be better if i keep a distance?.

Was down with a really bad flu, red & swollen throat and slight fever for the past 2 days.. and i've got 2 days MC for that.. was seriously affected by it as i've got blocked nose due to the bad flu and it rid me of my beauty slp as i can't slp well in the night..  N as you guys know.. SLPING is my FAV HOBBY AND IT'S AN ESSENTIAL THING TO ME.. thus.. being rid of it for the past few days is a torture..

But well.. i'm well now.. and thanks to the medication.. i slept through the night for the past few days.. haas.. though there's still a slight flu here and there.. i'm already back to work.. Mmh.. was actually sick 3 weeks ago and i brush it aside thinking that i would recover as time past but then it became worse.. =.=

Basically there's seriously nothing much for me to blog.. as my everyday routine nowadays would b working, rotting, chilling out, slping, working, rotting, chilling out, slping....................................................... thus.. my life is still as peaceful as ever.. haas.. 

Had a last min outing with ahbao last sat.. n as always.. it was an enjoyable day out with her.. haas.. i think she enjoyed herself too.. cos i'm so so "man" for that day.. haas.. i was excited over that too.. n so was she.. i was "man" not based on appearance wise.. but rather my voice.. haas.. cos as mentioned earlier on.. i was sick for the past 3 weeks.. thus my throat was infected too.. n i got a totally changed voice that day.. haas.. 

Ohh.. Since i'm lazy and i've got nothing to blog about.. i shall post some recent pics of myself & some pics of ahbao!..

Hoho!.. enjoy the pics.. and Taas peeps~..

Note: I'm drowsy now due to the medication that i took earlier on thus the contents that i type may not be of relevant here and there thus don't mind abt that.. haas..