~ misses ~..

O.. i'm so so over the moon now.. cos cos.. my ah jie.. jus sms mi!!.. ><..

i miss her alot lah.. n it wun decrease k.. though i was happi at the same time she sms mi.. but.. i cried too.. =.=.. ok.. i noe i have a contradicting feeling.. but as i was in class.. i can't cry.. therefore.. i swallow my tears back.. cos i reminded myself that i'm in class.. n it's not nice to actually cry in front of them.. cos it's kinda.. embarrassing.. as i dunno them welll.. but the main reason is.. i dun like to cry in front of ppl whom i noe.. cos i dun like ppl seeing mi cry.. i jus dun like the feeling.. which is y.. i'm kinda wondering how some ppl can actually jus cry in front of ppl jus so easily n at jus anywhere..

tok wif baobao on the fone yesterday nite.. n we tok till 2am.. =.=!!.. which is y.. she's having her tsunami + earthquake now at her office.. n i'm still alrite though.. cos i'm used to it.. we chatted on a lot of tinks.. n enjoy the tok too.. i'm realli glad that she's by my side.. cos if i didn't tok to her yesterday.. i tink.. i would be busy flooding my rm again.. cos one side of the bed is empty.. my ah jie flewwwwwwwww to perth le okie.. ><..

but but.. nevertheless.. ppl~.. dun worri abt mi for those who r worried.. cos i'm fine now.. n feeling better.. though whenever i look at my rm.. i would have the feeling of crying again.. cos i jus feel that sumtink is missing somewhere.. which is my ah jie is missing beside mi.. but.. dun worri ppls.. i will b strong.. n pull through all tis.. until my sis is back from perth.. somewhere mayb in dec?.. for her holidays.. i will get to c her again.. i will b a strong n brave ger.. i will....................................................

N.. i'm meeting my chio bu baobao later on in the evening at city hall for dinner.. i dunno y.. but it seems like.. baobao is the oni person that can cheer mi up among my friends.. even when i m in a very emo mood or not in a good mood.. she alwaes manage to cheer mi up.. n put a smile on my face.. for example.. i was very very very emo yesterday becos my ah jie flew to perth.. n quite a few ppl who noes.. came to cheer mi up.. but.. it's not that i dun wanna cheer up.. but it's jus that.. i dun have the mood n neither the heart to actually put up a fake smile to u ppl.. i realli wanted to gif u all a smile.. to make u all feel better.. but.. i jus can't seems to do it.. but when i tok to baobao.. on msn in the afternoon.. after awhile.. i actually smile.. that's the 1st smile that i had after my sis left in the morning.. N.. it's oni towards her.. that i'm not so cold.. to the others.. i replied them very coldly.. which i'm very sorri abt it.. but i can't help it.. i dunno y is it tis way.. N to add on.. she feels the same way wif mi too.. =.=!!.. cos she has her own personal tink that she's not feeling good abt it too.. n.. she have got the same happening as mi.. such as treating others coldly.. though we oni noe each other for like about 1 yr plus but i find it quite amazing that we 2 can actually have alot of tinking and feeling which r the same.. Nnn.. i'm glad that i have her.. ^^..

Hmm.. wondering wat's my ah jie doing in perth now.. i believe everytink would b fine for her n she can adapt very fast.. cos she's my AH JIE.. duhz~.. my ah jie is a wonder woman okie.. n she's my ah jie regardless of what she did, who she is n where she is.. she's forever MINE!..

As promised to love n lover n baobao, i will b back to my normal self soon.. n i m now.. 80% normal.. jus that sometimes i will b a little emo k.. dun blame mi for that.. cos i miss my ah jie.. ><..

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Jasmine Lim Kai Zhen is is is is is strong!!..

yup yup.. i am..

alrite.. shoo off le..