.. Enlightening ..

O.. suddenly but dunno y.. i feel so enlighten of everytink that happens and has happen.. therefore i shall.. n will not.. brood over it, tink abt it n neither m i going to bother abt it.. N yup.. i'm currently in a calm calm cool cool mood.. not hot neither angry.. n i'm not saying all tis in a puff of anger okie.. i thought THROUGHLY abt it.. n came to tis conclusion.. like my blog title.. "somethings are jus meant not to be".. therefore.. some things are realli not meant to be therefore i shall not force it neither m i going to do anitink to save it.. as i did it already.. n it's jus not meant to be.. so yup.. i shall leave it.. mayb not being together often would helps in everytink yea..

After reading my beloved ah tee blog.. i was like laughing throughout her whole post .. n my friend thought i was one siao cha bo.. -.-.. her blog post sometimes realli makes mi laugh my head off and jus forget abt anitink that is troubling mi at that moment.. the content and the way she phrase her post jus make my days.. ahhas..

Toking abt ah tee.. it sets mi tinking abt some stuff abt friendship(which i dunno y.. it jus came so suddenly.. ) though we peeps dun realli get together now.. but we r alwaes friend.. a friend is for life.. irregardless of meeting or not.. a true friends is one who are still friends even after not contacting for a period of time.. n i remembered the last time we met up was like 3 to 4 months ago.. n when we met up.. it's jus like ever before.. even when we had not been contacting for like 1/2 yr.. n i love the feeling of it.. though u alwaes nag mi.. -.-.. but i noe.. u alwaes meant well for mi.. though sometimes ur words are harsh n not pleasing to my ear.. but i noe.. u meant well too.. everytink that u did for mi last time.. i noe it all rounds up to the same conclusion.. which is.. u meant well for mi.. i'm realli glad to have u as my buddy.. ahhas.. alrite.. dun puke okie ah tee.. i noe u will WANT to.. but dun okie.. all tis are from the bottom of my heart.. n i meant it.. i alwaes knew u meant well for mi..

Alrite.. i'm very affectionate nowadays.. -.-.. which i seriously dunno y too..

Before i started playing audi, all the terms of dear; darlings; lover; baobei.. was like alien to mi.. cos i dun call that even to my dearest friend or family members.. as i find that it's kinda mushy to do that.. but ever since i started playing audi.. it became such a norm to mi.. i dun feel awkward calling ppl lover, baobei n watsoever there is.. cos it's a norm in audi.. therefore it became a norm to mi too..

Basically.. i dun even noe what i m bloggin.. i jus feel like blogging without having a head to what i should be blogging.. so therefore.. if there's no sequence in the blogging post.. kindly dun mind it.. cos i'm jus randomly typing down anitink that comes into my mind.. haas..

Hmms.. the world is jus full of contradiction isn't it.. everytink in the world happens for a reason of course.. n everytink happens because some tinks causes it.. isn't that the case?!.. there's forever no right or wrong to everytink.. as there's alwaes other way out to it.. n becos of the different perception and thinking that each and every person have, there's no end to everytink.. as each and every person would b holding on to their own tinking n tink in their own way.. n yup.. u may b saying that some people take in the comments that is given to them by the other party and tink in the other party shoes.. n when tis happens.. the tinks may or may not be solved.. depending on how the person may tink.. haas.. humans are jus one contradicting creature ain't we..

Sometimes.. i suppose.. it's not a bad choice been a person wif a hacking care attitude yea.. at least.. u will not b bothered abt everytink esp tinny winnie tink.. haas.. but on the contrary.. people may dislike u for that.. as u have a hacking care attitude which lots of people dislike?!.. as everyone have different perception.. wat seems small to u may seems big to others.. so there goes the contradicting thingy again..

so here we r.. alwaes revolving around the contradicting word.. round n round n round.. there's alwaes countless of sayings and reasons to everytink.. therefore.. what should we do?!.. to abide according to our own self character?!.. hacking care abt everytink that happens n face the risk of being dislike by people?!.. tink in the other party shoes and throw away ur own tinking n belief?!..

How nice would it be.. if everytink is jus simple n sweet.. but it's impossible.. cos we have all sorts of people wif different kind of patterns in the world.. being kind n simple may harm urself.. being vicious and evil is a protective armors towards urself.. so should we be a kind soul or a evil soul?!.. there's no such tinks as half half.. haas.. even if there is.. it's would seems hypocrite doesn't it?!.. one may b kind to certain people and evil to those who deserve it.. but when tis happens.. which is ur true self than?!.. what is ur real personality than?!..

HAAS!.. we human are jus one contradicting creatures..

contradicting contradicting contradicting~..