Shall update my blog again.. since i've got notink to do now.. haas..
Well.. went to ECP yesterday.. N i realise.. whenever i'm there looking at the sky.. there's oni one tink that will b running through my mind.. n that's.. my.. sister.. ><
I dunno y.. but whenever i'm there.. i tend to tink of her.. n it's oni ESP when i'm there.. but well.. i'm better than the time when she jus went off... i was almost tinking abt her.. everyday & it's at everywhere.. nowadays if i'm kept busy.. n doing things.. i'm alrite.. it's oni when i'm down, tired, alone.. i will tink of her.. Well.. it's not that i'm taking her as a pillar only when i'm down wif prob.. but in fact.. she's realli my pillar whenever i have prob.. cos though she dun advise much.. but her words alwaes do clear watever confusing mind i have.. incredible eh?!.. haas.. cos she's my sister.. she noes mi too well.. which is sometimes not a good tinks.. haas.. Mmh.. i alwaes do miss the time that she's beside mi.. n when i have tinks that is troubling mi.. i can jus tell her straight n she will b able to gif mi advise.. but now.. she's not even beside mi.. though she's not far from mi.. but still.. i can't reach her as n when i wan to jus like how it used to b like last time..
N yup.. i noe i'm 21.. i'm a adult.. i have to grow up n learn how to manage all tis by myself.. cos she wun b wif mi forever.. cos i need to & have to learn all tis as tis is part n parcel of lifes.. but well.. mayb becos i'm being too well protected by my families.. to the extent that it's not jus as easy as ABC to jus learn to be independent by myself.. of course.. i do wan to prove that i can.. so that my dad can trust in mi.. so that he noes that he can depend on mi.. so that he noes that i'm alwaes here for him if he needs ani help.. or need a listening ear..
I noe that i'm alwaes playing around.. running here n there doing unproductive things.. n my mind is jus filled wif one word.. which is "PLAY".. but i do noe when it's time to do the tinks.. though i dun seems convincing.. -.-
Well..
I'm trying.. i realli am trying..
To be..
independent..
responsible..
trustworthy..
mature..
Jus gif mi more time..
