There's up and down in lifes.. n prob recently.. everytink seems to b not in place.. n seems down.. Though it's quite demoralising after knowing what i'm looking forward to noe.. but still.. life has to go on.. n wat i can do now is to tink of solutions and ways to resolve it rather than brooding abt it n get depress over it..

If i didn't try.. i wun b having ani feeling.. i realli did try.. prob i didn't try harder than i should.. Aniwae.. it's over n brooding over it doesn't help..

It realli does hurt.. n it's not jus oni hurts.. but rather.. suffocating..

I created and make things tis way.. n so i have to bear the consequences.. i have oni myself to blame for everytink..

It definitely hurts when i have to repeat it again.. but wat hurts more is the disappointment that i get.. not from myself.. but my loved ones..

Nevertheless.. I still thanx God for the miracles that he have created in my life.. the change in mi which i didn't expect too.. the strength, wisdom, determination and everytink else that he has been helping and giving mi.. It's oni when u experience it urself that u will feel the power of him..