how i wish..

i noe i have said in the previous post that i wouldn't be emo.. but i jus can't help it.. so ppl.. jus pardon my emo post AGAIN.. i realli have no place to say out.. ><..
cos some things are not meant to be say out verbally.. as it's not easy to do it.. n typing is alwaes the best way i can express myself..

how i wish..

i dun exist in this world..

how i wish..

my heart is as hard as an iron..

how i wish..

i wouldn't b heartbroken..

how i wish..

i can b strong n strong n STRONG..

how i wish..

i will not fall in love easily..

how i wish..

i noe how to reject ppl..

how i wish i wish i wish..............................................................................

but will tis wishes ever come true?!.. it WOULDN'T..

i'm gonna be MIA-ing soon.. my mood recently had been very bad.. not as in hot temper.. but emo till the core.. n that's NOT ME!!..

I remembered ..

i was a happy ger..
i was a carefree ger..
i dun like emo-ing..
i alwaes dun like ppl emo-ing cos i dun like it..
i wun emo..
i'm veryvery good tempered.. even big big thing can't piss mi off..

but all tis all seems to be the past.. N i'm not the last time mi animore.. as for now..

I m....................

an unhappy ger..
an emo ger..
a ger who loves emo-ing..
a hot tempered ger.. even small tinks piss mi off..
a ger who can get emo in everytink..

jus so.. who m i now?!.. Jasmine lim kai zhen?!!.. i don't even noe animore.. i can't even recognized myself.. i wanted to turn for the better.. but in the end.. i ended up turning for the worse.. i hate it but i can oni blame myself.. y muz i be so concern on everytink?!.. y muz i b so mindful of the feelings of everyone around mi?!.. y muz i Y MUZ I!!.. i can't change it.. i CAN'T.. i wish i could.. but i dun wan to b a heartless fellow.. i dun wan to b a hack care fellow.. if i could.. i would have change it longlonglong time ago.. i wish to b heartless.. i wish to hackcare everytink around mi.. but i jus can't do it.. no reasons.. i jus can't.. cos it's in bond in mi.. i'm born to be so mindful n concern of everytink around mi..

Jus so i hope.. i can vanish in tis world..

i hope..